04/17/05: Signed up and ordered food; I am hopeful and optimistic that this will finally be the food plan for me!

04/25/05: Today will be my first day with the food. I've had my order for about 5 days now but wanted to sort through it and get an idea on how I was supposed to follow the program before I started. Hubby asked that I start on Monday since we were going to be busy all weekend. I told him fine, but that was it. No more excuses. I said, "you're tired of my fat and I'm tired of my fat so sacrifices will need to be made." He agreed. While he's not the image of perfection when it comes to health, he's still better off than me. Support is all I need from him right now. Baby steps........

04/28/05: I'm doing ok. So far, I've liked most of the food except for the Pasta Salad w/Ham (not too crazy about the dressing it comes in). I've been trying to make myself more conscious and aware of how/when/why I eat and all I can say is that it has been a real eye-opener. Anyway, I'm coming up on my first weekend which, in the past, is when hubby and I would eat out for just about every meal. This will be the true test of my resolve to lose the weight! Wish me luck!

04/30/05: Still have 2 more days until weigh-in. I'm really tempted to check the scale early, but feel that I will be disappointed. I feel tons better physically just by cutting back on the not-so-good-for-you foods for the past 5 days. Unfortunately, I now have a cold and can't taste a g-damn thing. It has been very hard, but I seem to be more motivated than past attempts. I usually cave-in after the 2nd day on a diet. My main goal for the 1st month is to "re-program" my brain to eat smaller portions, make wiser food choices and to eat several small, healthy meals at day as opposed to 2 small, crappy meals and 1 big crappy meal with several crappy snacks throughout the day and evening hours. Tough goal - I hope I make it!